This Complicated Pain

Im still afraid
To move on
I know its been years
But its still haunting me
I can still feel how that moment
Greeting me with every cold side of it
Im still afraid
To let go
I know i shouldn't do this
But that pain leaves big mark on my memory
Im still afraid
I know that was part of  my past
I should forgive him
Instead of cursing every single thing
That trying to get me
Trying to know me
Im still afraid
When i have power to fight
Help me fight